Stress is basically a disconnection from the earth, a forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down. Natalie Goldberg
This Natalie Goldberg quote is one of my favorites and one I’ve forgotten recently. I knew the signs and ignored them ~ tightness in my muscles, inability to focus, racing thoughts, shallow breath. Instead, I plunged ahead @ work & ran an errand at lunch. And I became convinced during this errand that I lost an expensive ring my mom had given me. I re-traced my steps, becoming more panicked as the ring remained elusive. I called work to say I would be late for a meeting so I could search my car & the words choked out of me ~ full sobbing breakdown ensued. Finally, I accepted that my ring had disappeared, lost to me forever. Normally, yes I would be sad & perhaps even a bit sick to lose something valuable to me. Ultimately though it’s a material thing & I can move on. The intensity of my reaction was a flashing neon sign to SLOW DOWN. This has been coming for awhile as I have struggled to balance family, creative outlets, writing projects, business-building, grad school, work etc. No longer does “I am woman hear me roar” call to me. I am human and cannot do it all.
What are your warning signs and how do you nurture yourself through the process?
(note to self: remember to put on ALL jewelry in the morning to avoid meltdowns over not-lost jewelry)